So since being on vacation it has given me a lot of time to reflect and think about my life. Everything always easier when your in a new, foreign, or different place; well to me it is lol. So since being here its given me a lot of thought about who I have grown up to be so far. I feel like at 20 years old I have gone through a lot as a person and not a lot of people know that. I think that from someone else looking in its hard to understand hardships of another person because they could have everything in the world yet still not be happy. I believe that happiness is a inner battle and over the years I have been getting to know and love me for me. I have come to the conclusion that forgiveness and letting things go is always in your best favor. We all hurt, we all go through pain whether it be emotional, mental, or physical but I think that its up to you if you are going to suffer from it. Personally when I go through something hard I let it control me, I let my emotions and my insecurities get the best of me but I have learned that in order to grow we need to let go and forgive. It is not doing you any good to hold on to anger or internal suffering. I think that to be at full peace with yourself it is crucial to let go, learn, and grow from your own experience. Some advice I have when going through a hard time is to find a hobby or something you love to do and do it! Put your all into it, your doing it for yourself. The second is to write. Write down how your feeling and your raw emotions, let it out. The third is to eat and find something to watch whether it be 8 seasons of gossip girl lol, I know from experience but believe me when I say it helps! it helps to just lay back and not care for a little bit!! taking care of yourself is crucial in your life!! i just want someone who is lost to know that they are not alone, Its okay to feel your emotions but the growth comes from learning from them and realizing that you are in control, not your emotions.